Pennsylvania is like a bad horror flick from the 50s...

...you know the ones I'm talking about...the B raters with the bad plots and acting..the ones where mutant aliens from another planets come and suck the brains out of the poor, innocent earthlings...

Yeah, that's kind of like how I feel right now...Everything here is just so morose and bland, it's like there's no feeling of life, no vibrancy, no energy. Being with my family is cool...and seeing friends is/will be cool...but I need an atmosphere that's got a high emotional charge, whether it be positive or negative. This neutrality is SLOWLY KILLING ME.

Maybe it's the weather...maybe it's the lack of a decent fall..hell, maybe it's even the DAMN WAL-MART THAT'S BEING BUILT DOWN THE ROAD FROM ME, but I've just been drifting in this state of semi-conscious thought since I got home. It makes me sad...incredibly sad...

Not working was a mistake...at least when I'm horribly busy I can keep my mind occupied...but without that constant need to be somewhere doing something...I'm just kind of wading around in a pool of eternity, waiting for a tomorrow that never seems to come.

Excuse me while I go kick myself in the arse twice...once for actually typing that and a second time for not deleting it immediately.

Tomorrow and Tuesday should be better...shopping with mom, visitng people at the hospital, hanging out w/ Katie and Ben, seeing the Gloriosos and the Levines...and Wednesday its back to the city, hopefully in time to do some work so I have available cash for the weekend.

On a happy note...some things I'm looking forward to...
1) Rick's visit
2) Ireland over SB
3) Christmas shopping in Georgetown and Pentagon City (just because the atmosphere is so cool)
4) Visiting Jo in Philly
5) Europe this summer (taking it by storm..one European Union country at time..DOWN goes the Euro!). Quiet, all of you, I swear I'm not on crack.
6) The fading of my flip flop tan (seriously...it's still horrendous..I must post pictures of it at some point or other...just so you can understand the horror that is this thing. My dad actually though I just hadn't washed my feet in weeks).
7) The Debates. All of them.

Also..I'm pondering the possibility of a new SN...we can all thank Adam for the lovely idea he put into my head (albeit unknowingly). We'll see..should I chose to switch I'll post it here and let everyone who matters know personally (via away message, obviously).